No sarcasm here. Just the reality of what you are attempting.
You are thinking of bringing children into the world to participate in and live within the constructs of your lie. I can only guess your motives, but can tell you that without any shadow of a doubt, as a professional educator, that the children will be damaged goods as a result of your selfish desires. Before you consider children you need to have your emotional house in order. You live in LA, as do I, it is probably one of the easiest cities in the world to lead your life as an openly gay man. I suggest that you give yourself the gift of courage, come out of the closet, go through the whole coming out process, and then and only then consider children. Children are so much more than little critters to fill your personal needs.