This posting is directly related to "Gay Thailand," BUT I would like to warm up to the subject by first copying some postings from the Internet. These may all be forgeries, but they struck me as genuine.
Posted by Dave (JK) on April 23, 1999 at 17:26:20:
Erm i just wanted to get off my chest that i really love my teacher
and i want him loads
and then:i know i have said this a thousand times and no one need reply
but it just helps me if i say it,
I really really like him alt and i would do anything for him
Just wanted to say that
and if he in a 100000000000000000000000000000/1 chance
he is reading this then i just want to say to him and all
the other people who expereienced similar heartbreak that
I'm thinking about you.
Love
Dave
xxxx
And then:It really helps to talk about him, I absoulutly love him in
everylittle detail he has to be the most fantastic man i have
ever met, no matter what background you come from or
what you look like or how you behave
he always has time for you and he is always interested in
what you do and like and just small stuff like that,
thats the problem
he has time for EVERYONE not just me and that makes me
INSANELY jealous
He also loves his family and goes on about them alot that hurts
and sometimes it is like he has spent his complementry 10
minuites with you
and would like you to leave even though he would never say it.
I'd say i am closer to him than most people and once i was
thick enough to ask if he liked me (as a freind)
and he just said that he doesent like anyone in
that way as emotions don't come in to it....
Maybe he has sussed me out but he never makes it
obvious that he knows
everyone probably thinks that he is being great
by not letting on that he knows but i don't think
he does even though i
make it fucking obvious
Physically he is also perfect He is in his forties
Bald men have also always turned me on he is well built due to the
amount of exercise he does
he has the most lovely facial hair ever!
he dresses really smartly as well (shirt and tie)
and even a suit the other day which turned me on beyond belif
and he has nice hairy arms which suggest he has a hairy body
It makes me so angry to know that he is straight that he
is just part of the system and i could never have him ever and i
just want to scream
I don't know what i have to do to get him to notice me
maybe thats why i used to think suicide would
but now i realise that he would notice me if i
did that but i wouldent be around to see his reaction and
if i left a nnote
saying why
then th would probably hurt him and i could never do that,
I know i should be happy if he is but the truth is that
i think about him all day everyday and i'll be leaving school soon i
only have a half year left and i'm petrified i'll never see him again
it would destroy me,
i think about him and his wife together and it
makes me physically sick
I just want to throw my arms around him and run off
together and never stop running.
Thankyou for listening
Love
Dave
xxx
Now -- this is going to be a long post -- I once had a similar thing happen to me, in Iran. Well, check out Part II for that.Dear all
I need some serious help
OK I know i obsess and i also go on and on and on but this
is really getting to me i dident want to say anything unless
it went away and you
all thought i was being silly but i have had these really
bad recurring dreams about my teacher I know you're all
thinking
and i'm really sorry for being so selfish but i cant sleep
at all and i am constantly walking round with my stomach in a
knot
In this dream i am walking through school and i see him
i tell him that i'm going down south for 2 weeks and that i'll see
him when i get back
he says "I won't be here when you get back" I then walk
him to the gate where a taxi is waiting to take him away, he is
leaving forever with his family to live somwhere
else at this point i am just panic striken
and then comes the worst part.....
he tells me of the sexual activites he and his wife get up to
I know it sounds kind of funny and a lot of people would
get turned on by it, but i just feel sick he goes on about the
positions and how well she sucks, and about tit fucking and
sex toys,
I then get into the taxi with him and we drive for ages (by
this point i am in a hysterical fit of tears) I begin
to lose the
plot a bit, he then gets out and says goodbye, i hold his
hand and hug him, he smiles and tells me not to cry then he
walks away and i wake up I wake up either shaking or sweating
or crying my eyes out i don't know what to do...
i've had this dream for about two weeks on and off
but the past 4 nights i've had it and i know i'm going to have it
tonight
What do i do?
I think it may have somthing to do with me leaving
school next year
but if it is how am i going to deal with it,
I think it may be the time to reveal all.........
What do you think?
Dave
xxxx
Please I would appreciate as many responses as possible
this is the most serious letter i have ever written i
think i am going to come apart as its started to affect
me mentally i
have began to get really paranoid and dangerously jealous
whenever anybody talks to him,
i've even started to think that one of my best freind who
is a girl (With a serious boyfreind) is beginning to like him, and
i know that he is straight and i cant change that but
i am begging you, i just cant forget him, i need to have him there
even if its not sexually i still need him here just so i know
that he is close and that i can spek to him once in a while do
you think its mental of me to ask him for his address so
i can write to him If he ever moved back to scotland or
anywhere else and he dident tell me i would be done for it
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