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Thoughts just pop up . I have sometimes thoughts I am embarressed about but can't help having them, like: "I hope Thailand stays relatively poor, this makes it cheap for me to get lot of sex with hot Asian boys".

Kudos to you for being prepared to admit to such a thought. I doubt whether there is a contributor to this board who has not had the same thought on occasions. People generally, and not just sex tourists, have many, many unworthy, mean little thoughts every day - it's what it means to be a human being, guided by self-interest. Many such thoughts evaporate mercifully into the ether almost as soon as they arise, others we consciously suppress because of the practical or legal difficulties of acting on them or because we know they would show us in an unattractive light. Some, on a message board like this, creep out anyway and then it's usually best to do what nordicguy does above and admit graciously to the unworthiness of the thought. Not everyone is capable even of that.