Thanks dodger. Not only for stating I am not a troll, but also for pointing out that cheating does not automatically mean I would have no love for my real boyfriend, which is definitely not the case.

Having said that, I do realize that what I am currently doing isn't the hallmark of the perfect boyfriend/partner.

Somehow I do have to deal with that. My honest problem is that I do actually care about two people at the same time at this very moment.

There is no question in my mind that I would dump my real boyfriend, but I somehow need to deal with my feelings for the other guy.

If he wasn't the sweet guy that he is, this would indeed have stopped at the drunken encounter back in November.

Fact is, it hasn't, and that's something I do have to deal with. The other bloke seems to believe that this 'arrangement' is a sustainable affair, but I don't think it is.

So I certainly have some work to do on my next holiday, which is in 10 days.