Ohhh, who the fuck knows. Leo's still on holiday with Barry, but isn't in love with him, and thinks Barry is stupid.
I guess Tobi is where it's at. Some 31 year old guy who works on the assembly line of a car manufacturing factory somewhere in Germany. Apparently, Tobi is really good at sex, so I'm out the window, and Tobi's in. Well, that was how the phone call started at least a couple weeks ago when Leo called, but once he heard my voice and words again, he quickly changed his mind, and decided he loves me again. Only problem here is Tobi has absolutely no plans or way to take care of Leo, and obviously doesn't seem to love him much, because if he did, at the very least he would have ensured Leo had a working phone before he fucked off back to Germany. Tobi's going to be back in Bangkok for Songkran though, and they will "figure it out" I guess.
Then I thought I finally got through to him, and got him back to normal. But of course not, because he's Leo and is crazy. The new plan was him and Barry were going to split ways, and he was going to stay with Kong in Vientiane, and wait for me to get there and we'd talk it over. Then in true Leo fashion, I get a message saying Barry changed his mind, so Leo's still on holiday until the 17th I guess, or who knows, it changes every day.
So the last few days I've simply been getting pissed off, and telling Leo he has to decide what the fuck he wants. Do you want me to love and care about you and have me as a husband, or do you want to be free as a bird? He doesn't know, and he has to think about it I guess. So then I got pissed off again, and told him if he had any heart, he wouldn't do this to me and leave me hanging like this. My first farang husband did this to me, and I lost 3 or 4 years of my life because he couldn't decide what the fuck he wanted. I told Leo that, and told him he needs to decide, but he can't make up his mind as of yet. He knows all he has to do is send me a quick WhatsApp message of "fuck off", and that will be it, and I'll leave him alone forever. He hasn't done that yet though, so I'm stuck waiting with my dick swinging in the wind.
The shit thing is, I owe this fucken idiot my life. I would have been dead multiple times over if it wasn't for his love, support, compassion and empathy, as he's the only reason I'm currently a confident blind guy. I know full well I wouldn't have been able to do this without him, so although everyone in my family thinks I'm crazy, I have no choice but to care about him. Well, unless he tells me to fuck off, but I haven't got that message yet, and am still waiting for him to decide.
This sucks, because I already know how this is going to play out. Leo's little stunt traumatized me in a way I've never experienced, so delayed my life a decent amount. I should be in Vientiane shortly though, so just let Leo see me in the flesh again, and I already know how this will probably go. Actually, that's wrong, and I don't know.
I know what Leo wants, and he wants exactly what my first farang husband wanted. He wants all the benefits of having me as a husband, but without any of the work or sacrifice that comes along with a long-term relationship. My rules are simple -- don't lie and don't cheat. Other than that, do whatever the fuck you want in life, and I will be there to support you 100%, I will be there to love you every day even when you're old and fat and ugly, I will make you happy when you're sad, I will cook you delicious dinners every night and even breakfast in bed at times, and I will always be there for you no matter what. Or you can be free as a bird, and he still doesn't know what he wants.
In good news though, Kong and myself have been getting along well. No romance or anything, and just purely friends. heh, he already told me straight up he's not giving me sex. :) Nonetheless, we know each other well enough now that I can trust him to take care of me once I get there, do my shopping for me, etc.
Then I think what I will do is just get another 3 or 4 guys like Kong to come live with me. There's probably thousands of young, gay, cute, broke university students in Vientiane who would enjoy a nice home to live in. I'm still adamant that I'm getting my house with a private swimming pool, meaning I will have 4 or 5 bedrooms, so there will be room. That way if and when one fucks off on me, I'll have a few back ups, and won't be left as a stranded blind guy in Asia.